THIS BAD HABIT!

ARGH! My mom's in Boracay, my brothers are not here at home, and it’s raining really hard outside! The problem is: I HAVE NO WAY TO GET EVEN A STICK OF CIGARETTE! Shox, cigarette… I need YOSI! I can’t make poo poo without it, haha, seriously it helps *but I’m not telling you guys to try it*. I’ve been smoking since I was in high school, god it has been a habit already. I would smoke during vacants, in the cr, after classes, during gimmicks, just chillin’, and basically anywhere and anytime that my throat feels like puffing. THIS IS BAD! I know of course, how many times have I read and seen the effects (hundred and millions of effects, bad effects) of smoking to our body. But the thing is… it’s addictive, not that I don’t want to quit though, I want to but I can’t. WANT AND CAN’T… ONE OF THE HARDEST IRONIES IN LIFE, HAI!
I already checked my brother’s room, no yosi; it’s flooding outside, how am I able to buy yosi! Guess what, its 10pm and I haven’t taken a bath yet… I need my yosi first! This is not good, help me stop this; help me… help me stop the rain so I can buy yosi… hahaha!