GONE ALL ALONG

Through the tears and the pain
through the sun and the rain
you were there

through the troubling storms
through our many forms
you were there

through the rebellion and frustration
through the lies and misinterpretation
you were there

through the stumbling and falling
after my every calling
you were there

when i fell short when i stood tall
you were there through it all

or was it just your body and not your soul?
you couldn’t have been there in whole

you hurt my heart and made it erupt
you really brought me down instead of lifting me up

you made the tears flow, you didnt dry them
instead of making me feel secure, you made me feel frightened

your love was always shifting, never sturdy and strong
you don’t know how to do right, you only know wrong

people are objects, they have no feeling
instead of loving you were killing

not the body, just the heart
you really know how to tear someone apart

so don't ask me if i'll be sad when you're gone
coz you know what hon... "you were gone all along"!

from no.09-> no.14 ;-P

I joined d crowd in araneta last Thursday for d finals of d UAAP season 68,, and I cant avoid but remember how me and my friends were introduced to Jerome Villanueva months ago,, as I was watching his brother, mr.jonas Villanueva play w/ d feu tamaraws! Though I try 2 get a better glimpse on joseph yeo,, it seems dat jonas’ view is more of a magnet to meh dan dat of yeo,, hehe,, well, even b4 I saw jonas in person, I already do watch hm play in television (and yeah, for me, he’s cuter dan his broder jome),, but sadly I wasn’t introduced to him unlike his bro, w/c I even made shake hands w/.. sad,sad,sad L

Oh well, d best part is,, he got d last free throw, & he has been a good point guard despite d pressure he has on for being miranda’s successor on d point guard position! And yup2,, jonas Villanueva was damn hot and he has a lot more 2 show in d coming season,, so to marvin cruz,, hmm, maybe try to put ur team at least in d final four 1^st b4 I go back in cheering u again,,hehe,, feeling! ;-P

>>oh dey said bro. eddie Villanueva is actually d uncle of jonas&jome (hmm,no wonder dey won,, prayers!)hehe

congrats LETRAN knights by d way (I forgot 2 post a blog about it b4)!

basketball!!!

la lng, ever since summer, i have been hooked up to all ds basketbol games... and players of course ;-P from PBL->NCAA->UAAP!

hai nako,xempre ang charlie's angels ng araneta,cuneta at mga sari-saring gym ng skuls,, kmeng 3 nina jelaine and lexie! tnx 2 lexie's connections, we are fortunate enuf 2 watch d games of our fave players! here's my list by d way,,hehe,, mga pnapanood and crush q sa hardcourt:

#8-> ViCtoR ESPRES = UP fighting maroons

#18 DouG KRAMER = ATENEO blue eagles

VILLANUEVA TWINS..

#10 JeROmE = FEU

#14 JoNAs = tamaraws

#8 DaRiN CECILIA = PCU dolphins

#17 EnRIco TIRONA = SAN BEDA red lions

#5 JAi REYES = ATENEO blue eagles

PLAYER NO.9's COH!!!!!

->#9 YeOSif ALJAMAL = SAN BEDA red lions

and xempre,, my ultimate player among dem all,,

<-#9 marvelous.. MARVIN CRUZ,, = UP fighting maroons

#12 KeLVin DELA PEÑA = MAPUA cardinals *I LOVE YOU DUDE,GRABE*

grabe,, pro my bet for NCAA,, LETRAN XEMPRE,, most na kbarkada nmen nina jelaine don eh,, d best LETRAN!

and for UAAP,, hmm,, ateneo and/or feu sna,, pro UP pren,, marvin eh,,hehe!

**i hate PCU,, EPAL KYO! di na pasok mapua cardinals sa finals, i wont get 2 see much more of KelviN,, darn tlaga,, kainis,, dpat matalo PCU,,go LETRAN!** behlat ;-P

A MAGICAL FEELING - mymp

I never really saw myself having this perspective,,, indeed,it's not bitterness,, but gratitude instead! MaGiCaL FeELiNG-> so true!

I was in a car crash
Throwed up like trash
Slap twice, step thrice
It felt so real
Baby what's the deal
Look straight into my eyes
You told me all these lies

I didn't see it coming
I didn't see it happening
That one day you'd be leaving me hanging

Chorus:

I'm happy you left me
I prayed that you hurt me
It's a magical feeling
Knowing that you're not meant for me

Heavy rains poured on me
Lightning struck and hit me
Slap twice, step thrice
It felt so real
Baby what's the deal
Look straight into my eyes
You told me all these lies
I didn't see it coming
I didn't see it happening
That one day you'd be leaving me hanging

(repeat chorus)

People say you're sorry
But baby don't you worry
Life has been easier without you
We should have done this earlier.

(repeat chorus 2x)

CARELESS MISTAKE

¤Below is the winning piece in the latest contest sa UP Creative writing contest¤

its been 4 months since i saw him and talagang namimiss ko na siya...pero what can i do? it seems that i have loved the wrong person.... but still the pain keeps on hurting me and kung walang magbibigay ng gamot para ditto sa nararamdaman ko.... baka mamatay na ako....

¤to give you a background about my life, everthing seems to be fine except dun sa time na dumating na sa buhay ko yung hinayupak na lalake na yon.... hehehehe.... kung curious kayo about dun sa guy... bestfriend ko po yon kaso lang iba na ang nangyari as time passes by.....

classmate ko sya nung highschool. pards pa nga ang tawagan namen.... o db ang sweet? di na ako iba sa kanya and ganon na ren sya sa aken.... kung di nga lang ako naging babae baka naiuwi na ako nun sa bahay nila and baka lahat ng gawaing pang brusko eh ipagawa na nun sa ken eh..... pero cyempre mukha pa ren naman akong babae noh!!

¤highskul cyempre may prom.... wala cyang date, wla ren ako.... i know that he wanted to invite me to be his date pero ang ogag nga kasi nun kaya the last minute tsaka lang sya nag-ask. he went to our house... nakamotor po sya and medyo pawisan pero infairness.... mabango pa ren....

he ask my permission to see my dress for the prom.... cyempre para maloka sya sa aken at may konting surprise... i refuse.... o sige, medyo na frustrate sya pero hindi yon naging hadlang para invite nya ko.... sa ganda ko na to..... cyempre ang dami munang pa-echeng.... hanggang sa tanungin nya ako kung may date na ba me.... e kung di ba naman siya abnormal eh.... papayag ba akong makipagdate sa iba eh sya lang ang gusto ko.... lam mo yon... sarap sampalin.... so in short, papilit pa ba ako? syempre.....the night of my life came, i was so pretty sabi ng nang-uuto kong nanay... pero naniwala lang ako nang sya na ang nagsabi.... blush ako ever....kahit alam kong maganda ako since birth (hehehehe) iba pa ren yung sa kanya galing diba?

¤we enjoyed that night and lalo ko lang napatunayan sa sarili ko na mahal ko na pala ang hinayupak na bestfrend ko......

syempre ano pa ba ang sunod na event sa prom kundi ang graduation na db? the night before the graduation, we talked on the phone na para bang it would be the last time na maririnig namen ang boses ng isat-isa..... ive waited for the moment na mabanggit nya na may feelings din sya and hindi naman ako nagkamali.... tinanong nya ako kung may possibilty daw na maging kame.... i know na maiinis kayo sa ken dahil alam nyo ba ang sagot ko? ah, eh.... hindi pwede kase bestfrends tayo eh.... yung mga anak na lang naten yung ipag- partner naten.... sa isip-isip ko.... ang tanga! pano ko nasabi ang ganong words? pero wala na akong magagawa..... alam namang bawiin ko pa eh di nahuli naman ako db? pero ang tanga ko talaga....

¤cyempre college na.... im so proud to say na napunta naman ako sa magandang school and take note... pareho kame ng skul..... ano to? Kailangan bang ituloy ang naudlot na pagmamahalan namen?.... hehehe....

nagkaboyfriend ako for a year and a half.... minahal ko sya pero there are these conflicts and problems na di na kayang ayusin.... in short.... nagbreak kame.....

¤i guess god meant that to happen kasi yon din yung time na nagkita kame ng bestfrend ko..... sa sobrang miss namen ang isa't-isa.... sabay na kameng umuwi, kumain, pumasok..... im happy pero parang lalo ko lang pinahirapan ang sarili ko dahil my feelings for that guy grows each and everytime that we are together... buti na lang magaling akong magtago at magpigil....hehehe.... bilib kayo noh?.....

one morning, im so busy preparing my project that would be pass on that same day.... alam kong dumati ng na sya at nasa likuran ko na ang mokong pero dah il sobrang pressure sa project.... gusto ko man syang dambahan... cyempre mamayang gabi na lang di ba? hehehe.... di ko sya masyadong napansin.....

¤may inabot syang sulat sa aken and he asked if i could join him sa lunch.... i said yes.... then, alis na cya.... alam naman kc nyang im busy.....

when i was about to enter the room, somebody bumped me and my precious project fell... gusto ko mang magalet... what can i do db? instead I ask my prof to give me another chance to do my project.... naalala ko si mokong.... the lunch date.... kinuha ko ang cell ko to text him that I cant come to our meeting.... e kaso.... pag tinamaan k nga naman ng malas.... check operator service daw.... i tried to look for friends or other kakilala pero malas that day talaga....

¤and so i took my lunch all by my self.... naalala ko yung letter....hinanap ko sa bag... WALA !!!! bumalik me sa corridor praying na andon pa yung sulat.... wala ren.... god! why? minsan lang magbigay ng sulat yon.... nawala pa.... dont know how to tell him about the letter....

and so days and weeks passed, pag nagkikita kame... di nya ako pinapansin... ako, i tried to talk to him pero alam kong may kasalanan ako pero ganon ba kalaki ang nagawa kong di pagpunta at ganon na lang ang iwas nya?... sige... hinayaan ko na lang....

¤months na ang binilang... i heard that he was dating a girl from the same school that we are in... masakit.... na sa iba ko pa narinig na sila na.... mas masakit na wala na akong halaga sa kanya.....

basta... ilang araw din yon na ganon ang nararamdaman ko.... weeks....months.... gagraduate na po ako.... i wonder what's instore for me in my last day in school.... and so i thought na puntahan yung favorite hang out namen.... when i was about to get near the place.... i saw him... with the girl.... umiiyak ang bruha but i cant hear what they are talking about.... so ive decided to get out of that place before my tears burst out.... and then a common frend ang sumalubong sa aken.... saying na buntis ang girl.... syempre.... durog na durog ang puso ko.... kung kaya nyo lang ma-imagine yung naramdaman ko.....

¤the night of that same day.... naloka ang lola nyo.... nagparamdam ang mokong pagkaraan ng pagkatagal-tagal na panahon... i thought it was something good for me... for us.... pero i was wrong.... so wrong..... he gave me a wedding invitation and isa ako sa bridesmaids..... the girl...she was waiting in the car.... o db? Dati motor lang ngaun... car na.... sosyal dba?

and so the wedding came.... maganda po ako nun.... sabi ng nanay ko pero wala ng nagsecond the motion eh.... so naniwala na lang ako sa nanay ko.... then, there was this professor who came to see me.... he handed over a letter with my name carefully printed on the enveloped.... he said that he looked for the owner of that letter kaso lang po malaki po ang skul namin kaya mahirap magkahanapan db? and so nung nakita nya ang name ko sa invitation, he decided to bring the letter thinking that it could save souls... daw....

¤and so i was about to open the letter when the priest ask kung sino daw ang tututol... dedma ako.... alam namang manggulo pa ko noh....binasa ko na ang letter..... nakakatouch po talaga.... he opened up his feelings for me.... hoping na meron din daw akong feelings for him.... he ask that if i will show up to our hang - out the next day after he gave his letter, then it means that i also have feelings for him and that he would love me for the rest of our lives.... but if i wont.... then he will never open that topic again....he pleaded to me na sana pumunta ako... ...if only i have that letter.... if only i knew about it.... kung di lang ako clumsy and careless to keep that letter... things would be different....if only.....and so i heard the priest announced the couple as husband and wife....ang sakit......

picture taking..... gusto mang sumabog ng nararamdaman ko.... as you know.... magaling akong magpigil.... pero masakit po talaga....sobra......

¤after the picture taking...... niyakap ako ng bestfrend ko.... ang higpit.... and teary eyed nyang cnabi na....

¤“i still love you.......”¤

OUR BABIES =)

they may not have breeds... but they are sure special =)

ONCE BEAUTIFUL SMILE

When you smile
I wanna throw up
Stop your childish jokes
And grow up

When you laugh
I get out of the room
Coz it irritates my mind
To see you bloom

Colors of your rainbow
A sore for my eyes
The light you emit
Makes me sick inside

Your movements
What a disgrace
I dont really fit
In your embrace

Your words are so
Incredibly lame
Never again
Will I enter your game

And your smile
Not pretty anymore
And my arms
Never did fit yours

Similarities are gone
We were different all along
Though it wasnt a waste
I hated the way you taste

Your once beautiful smile
I wont be seeing for awhile
I begged and pleaded
This is just what I needed

Free from your clutch
Thank you very much
Stupid!