AFTER A WHILE

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesnt mean leaning and
company doesnt mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses arent contracts
and presents arent promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your
head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an
adult, not the grief of a child, And you learn to build
all your roads on today because tomorrows
ground is too uncertain for plans.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if
you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own
soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you
flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
That you really are strong, and you really do have
worth.
And you learn and you learn
with every good-bye you learn!

GONE ALL ALONG

Through the tears and the pain
through the sun and the rain
you were there

through the troubling storms
through our many forms
you were there

through the rebellion and frustration
through the lies and misinterpretation
you were there

through the stumbling and falling
after my every calling
you were there

when i fell short when i stood tall
you were there through it all

or was it just your body and not your soul?
you couldn’t have been there in whole

you hurt my heart and made it erupt
you really brought me down instead of lifting me up

you made the tears flow, you didnt dry them
instead of making me feel secure, you made me feel frightened

your love was always shifting, never sturdy and strong
you don’t know how to do right, you only know wrong

people are objects, they have no feeling
instead of loving you were killing

not the body, just the heart
you really know how to tear someone apart

so don't ask me if i'll be sad when you're gone
coz you know what hon... "you were gone all along"!

ONCE BEAUTIFUL SMILE

When you smile
I wanna throw up
Stop your childish jokes
And grow up

When you laugh
I get out of the room
Coz it irritates my mind
To see you bloom

Colors of your rainbow
A sore for my eyes
The light you emit
Makes me sick inside

Your movements
What a disgrace
I dont really fit
In your embrace

Your words are so
Incredibly lame
Never again
Will I enter your game

And your smile
Not pretty anymore
And my arms
Never did fit yours

Similarities are gone
We were different all along
Though it wasnt a waste
I hated the way you taste

Your once beautiful smile
I wont be seeing for awhile
I begged and pleaded
This is just what I needed

Free from your clutch
Thank you very much
Stupid!