We haven't had that type of talk for quite some time, heart to heart, ideals to ideals. I noticed how I've been far from you since you came. Far emotionally, far physically. Thanks for the heads up.
I can't sleep. I kept thinking how much special you've made me feel ever since you've met me. I never even asked for it. Lately I've been feeling taken for granted, not special, or that I don't deserve what other ladies are experiencing... because I was so busy looking at the other side. I kept on pushing something that isn't there, while you're busy pulling me back. Thank you. Salamat, for making me feel like a princess once in a while. For spending some of my special time with you. For remembering me on the simplest gestures to the random thoughtfulness (I keep even the smallest of surprises). I feel bad not being able to remember you as much as how you remember me.
Please don't blame yourself for being far from me for quite some time. I honestly don't believe in long distance, but I believe you deserve that break. I lost a fan when you went away. I lost a constant confidant on my plans, dreams and setbacks. I somehow lost confidence in the past few months, but I almost forgot, you have always been proud of me.
I am sorry if you felt detached from me already. To be honest, I don't deserve what you're showing me. But right now I am overwhelmed to get back to reality and realize that I have someone who values my worth, my needs, down to my wants. Even when I am least deserving of it.
I am sorry, one day you'll understand where I'm coming from. Thank you for making me feel special and loved again, even if I got lost along the way.
