AUGUSTRATION!

(august frustrations)
It’s the start of the ‘Ber’ months and I hope some wishes will do come true… after all, it’s just a few days away from Christmas… hai, hope the coming months will be a lot better!

I HATE THIS THREE LETTERS: S L R

Single- lens reflex camera, when can I have one? Hai, I swear that when my dad calls from abroad again I will never forget to ask him to buy me one. I know it’s expensive but maybe we can work it out, marame naman sa quiapo eh. I don’t know but I think… or rather… I believe that I have it, given the proper gadget… I can pursue my niche in photography.

Right now, I am stuck with Cybershot, not so cyber for me though. But thank you Lord for all the blessings.

NOW THIS THREE NUMBERS: 1 6 8

Yeah, I have been planning to shop in station 168 since July actually, and yet until now, I haven’t gone anywhere near Tutuban. To be honest, I’ve only been to Tutuban, Divisoria or Station 168 for less than 5 times only, considering that I am studying in Ubelt and I actually reside only somewhere in Pureza. Whenever I have savings for my shopping journey in 168, gimmicks, biglaang inuman, school expenditures get in my way, argh! I envy those who have showed me GOOD stuffs they’ve bought in Tutuban, with a very GOOD price as well.

I have new clothes though, yet I prefer to buy cheaper ones this time. But thank you Lord for all the blessings.

AND THIS NUMBER: T W O (2)

I have joined the recent CEU’s SELAMS Debate Contest. I am teamed up with Fritz and Keene, it’s their first time to join, while this is my second time. I am very fortunate because the first time I joined last 2006, our group grabbed the best debating team =D This year’s premise is “Federalism as the key solution to the present economic crisis”. I have to admit, it was nerve cracking, brain crushing, yet very challenging! We are on the opposition side, and on the very last minute we decided to put me from the position of deputy leader of the Opposition to Leader of the Opposition. I was surprised myself when all the jitters vanished and all I wanna do is scream out all the points of information we have congregated. But somehow I wasn’t able to do it. Some saw my effort, but I didn’t. We ended up as the 2nd best debating team, and it was even a tie between us and team B (there are 4 teams/ 2 premises). The funny thing is there aren’t enough silver medals since the remaining medals are bronze (the tie wasn’t expected of course), and those silver medals were handed down to team B since they’re the 1st one to come up stage. But of course we will still get our silver medals, to follow up. Now why am I frustrated? Simple, because being in 2nd place is the most crucial of them all. When you’re the 3rd, it’s easy to accept that maybe, you really did fall short. No need to complain if you’re the 1st. But being the 2nd, it makes me wanna ask myself: “If we did better, just a little more push to be better, could we have won?” Being in 2nd place is like being ‘almost there’. ALMOST!

They said that around 30 in our college were screened for the debate, so the chosen 12 who competed were the cream of the crop. I’ve received congratulations and praises after though, but still I guess I expected more from myself since we won the first time I joined. But thank you Lord for all the blessings.

FINALLY THESE LETTERS: L B S

Ow yeah, lbs, or pounds! This time many can relate to me… RAISE YOUR HANDS IF YOU’RE ONE OF US! Ang mga pumalya sa diet! Sorry naman, pero it’s so hard! Considering my tight, tiring and terrible schedule, the only fortress for relaxation besides sleeping and texting ‘him’ is to eat. I WANT TO HATE DINNER, BUT DINNER DOESN’T HATE ME =( Ow well, what shall I do, I’m gaining weight, I’m losing the sexy figure (waaaah, kabog!). Summer was hell for me… that was the time I bloated big time (if only bloated means bloated with water)! Anyone wants to hit a punching bag, my arms are very much eager to help you. Or anyone in need for a support in swimming, my bilbils (can anyone tell me the English of this word?) are very ready to help you float in water. And of course, want palo-palo for your labada? Or for anyone’s initiation maybe? My fatty pata is on the go to serve you!

*C’MON LET’S NOT EXPECT ANY BODY PICTURE HERE, PUHLEASE, I’LL DRINK MORE FIT&RIGHT FIRST BEFORE I DO THAT, DESPERATE MEASURES CAN MAKE YOU VULNERABLE TO ADVERTISEMENT*

I think I am fat, but they say I am only chubby (wow ha, is that a relief?), I miss my curves, but I still get guys though, haha! I hate being fat, my chest can’t get any bigger. I want to attract perverts no more =P But still thank you Lord for all the blessings.

YEAH AUGUSTRATIONS…

August frustrations.

I am only human, I do complain, I do get disappointed, I don’t always get what I want.

But then I also realized that I shouldn’t be frustrated at all, that I have survived, that I didn’t cry a river for whatever reasons lately, that I have a Cybershot while the rest settle for less, that I can still plan to shop while the rest can’t even squeeze it in their budget, that I am in 2nd place while the rest didn’t even made the list… and that I am gaining weight, while the unfortunates have nothing to eat.

THANK YOU LORD FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS!

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How much do you treasure a past? How can a person affect you so much that you’ve spent two years of your life having different relationships, but still, yes still… you know it’s still him. How many times have you tried burning the bridges down? How long can you stand the endless impossibilities of that moment to happen again?

What is the purpose of a person investing his / her feelings for someone, only to find out that it’s not gonna be reciprocated at all. What is the bottom line of two individuals showing same affection, yet are questioned by their own feelings. What do you do when all you’ve done is to make him a better man, only to find out that you made yourself less of a person?

Where will I begin to start the many reasons on why I think he’s special? Where do you go when he starts to love someone new? Where did we stop and where did all these feelings started… again. Where am I in your heart, and where do I stand in your life?

Why do we always end up sending sweet messages yet we are only friends now. Why can I not know the reasons on why you’re still here, I lost you but not really. Why did I met you, remembering the very day you were introduced to me, I can’t help but ask myself… why did I fell for that one in a hundred smile.

When will something so special happen again? When do I tell you that I miss you, and this time you’ll believe it? When will I hug that special boy who made me realize that true enough, embraces are much sweeter than kisses. When can I hear from him that he appreciates me, even just the appreciation, that will do, he doesn’t have to love me.

Who is he, carrying the smile of a boy and the eyes of a lover? Who is that special someone that made me strong, made me selfless, and made me so happy all at the same time? Who is that boy I’ve asked God to take care of, that boy I will never forget, that boy who I believe will turn out to be a brave man after all.

Who is he and why do I miss him? When will I see him again and what will happen after? Where do we go from here and how will all these end?

“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day. Letters to a Young Poet”

PS: as I write this, a message was sent to me from that special boy… he said he miss me =)

OVERLOADED LESSONS IN COLLEGE LIFE

Sorry I wasn’t able to share my thoughts for a while; our computer needs to be reformat. Yeah some of my files were lost. The pictures were a-ok but, argh, my iTunes is gone! All the songs were gone! So much for my ipod =(

Anyway, that is the least of my concern, well not actually, I already have tons of songs on my ipod… damn… buhbye =( But the worst worry right now is my incoming semester when I enrolled 2 days ago and finally got my subjects.

I’ll give a little background first. I transferred school last school yr. but only stayed there for 1^st sem (because my mom thinks that this school will just worsen my tardiness) and so I went back to my old school for 2^nd sem. Whew, I missed a lot of subjects alright! Almost all of their subjects for 1^st sem became my back subjects, tell me… HOW AM I ABLE TO GRADUATE NOW?? =(

Because of that case, the very cool Ms. Lucero decided to put me to the section of the lower yrs. so that I can get their subjects and at the same time take my other 2 majors from my original batch. Yup yup, it was OVERLOADING… 32 UNITS… 40 thousand plus pesosesoses!!! For those who aren’t in college yet, this number of units is synonymous to headache, nosebleed, or suicide… depending on your capacity. Whew, I do hope it’s not suicide for me!

Honestly I’m scared, my main problem as a student is time management. Yes I am always late, and just when I thought the storm has ended, it rained again… I have 2 subjects with a 7AM schedule – BOTH MAJOR SUBJECTS. Ms. Lucero also said that if I fail even just one subject, there’s a possibility that they’d de-load me, meaning they would cut some of my units right in the middle of the semester… waaaah! God help me! Okay, for those who are asking why I let this happen, simple… this is the only way that I can graduate on time, see, I was supposed to be wearing a toga last march already. I guess my 1^st semester isn’t gonna be a splendid carousel after all, a dreadful roller coaster perhaps! I have no idea how I can possibly sustain a love life with that schedule. Well not that I am putting that on my priorities, but admit it, an inspiration may be of good help right?

I am starting to be cynical; I hope I can make it. For those who are only starting college, don’t ever dare to play around with your grades. This is close to the real world, you can’t just give an apple to the teacher to give you incentives. Be punctual, it didn’t became a habit for me… look what happened! Modesty aside but teachers always get disappointed because despite my academic capabilities, my records fail because of either disciplinary reasons (high school days) or attendance (college days).

I want to graduate, but I still want to be a student. It’s stressful, it’s a weekly dilemma… to gimmick or to study… to drink or to read… to pursue a lover or to push a goal. Hmm, brain freeeezeee! Hard to answer!

I guess whenever we will encounter these dilemmas though, always remember Bob Ong’s message:

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!)."

Ooops, I think he has a better advice than this…=S

"Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan..."

There you go! I need not explain what the best option to consider is =)

PA-BURGER KA NAMAN!

GOT SOOOOO BORED THAT I MADE MYSELF A BURGER... WHAT'S WORSE?? I EVEN TOOK PICTURES OF IT... HAHAHA! BURGER BURGER BURGER!

AMERICAN IDOL'S DAVID COOK... FEED ME!!!

C'MON HE'S MY NUMBER ONE BET FOR THIS SEASON'S AMERICAN IDOL... DAVID COOK'S HOT... sooooo hot (at least for me... again)... but i guess many would agree since the votes are still kicking for him =D

!!! he's a wonderful guitarist, but not very good at Guitar Hero.
!!! he has a left arm tattoo and a left handed as well..
!!! he's a word nerd. he likes to do crossword puzzles and word searches.
!!! his bday is december 20, 1983... not too old for me =D
!!! The "AC" on his guitar is actually a tribute to his older brother



His brothers' names are Andrew and Adam. The AC is for Adam.
!!! he dislikes "almost any vegetable" (tsk2... but i love veggies) =(
!!! hates to listen to his own music
!!! played on his high school baseball team (kewl!)
!!! he has a crush on Mandy Moore, but he's never really been interested in her music (good... kiddin')
!!! was born with a disease called poloricstinosis (wutever dat is,,haha)
!!! he almost always wears a key on a string around his neck (among other things). Sometimes he ties it around his wrist like a bracelet.
!!! his middle name is Roland by the way (nice one right?? i mean does anyone like their middle name? i dont! )
AFTER DAUGHTRY.... HERE COMES MY NEW AMERICAN IDOL LOVE... COOK!!! NAH.... ID STILL GO FOR DAUGHTRY.... HEHE!
BUT STILL VOTE FOR OOOKKKKK????!!!!!!

I REMEMBER NOKIA...

I MISS YOU NOKIA... I AM TELLING MY FRIENDS STUFFS ABOUT YOU, HOPE YOU DON'T MIND... HAI...

PRESENTING R'MEO LUVS DEWLHIETT

after CCP, eto naman!
im so happy to be included in this production though... actually di talaga aq part ng original cast, i was just requested to guest & replace nica's role 'Mrs.Montesco', ang palengkerang nanay ni Romeo...and no regrets na tinanggap q ung role =D

R'MEO LUVS DEWLHIETT

THE TAGALOG / JOLOGS VERSION OF ROMEO LOVES JULIET! FUNNY FROM START TO END (walang kokontra) haha =P

i played mrs.montesco (mother of romeo), mercutio (cousin of romeo) and sakristan...whew!!!

hai...its over... pwede na magpahinga... hehe...

WARMING UP

DRESS TECH REHEARSAL, NANGINGIALAM BACKSTAGE =P

DRESSING ROOM

SKETCH OF MRS. MONTESCO

CAST PICTURE FOR THE PROD. BOOK

NOW WITH OUR TECHNICAL STAFF

OUR NOKIA DIED ='(

she has been our bunso for 8years...

her death was expected actually, she already lost appetite and has been weak ever since. Nokia is my witness for all the heartbreaks I’ve gone through, yes… from the very first time I fell in love and had my heart broken… she was there. I’ve always believe that we can share our hard feelings to our dogs, that’s why I always hug Nokia every time I cry. She never fails me, every time I would cry she is there beside me (literally), as if she could really understand me… but maybe she does? I remembered the week before she died, I was crying over ‘F’ in Tuctang’s room because it’s almost Valentine’s Day and got sentimental over him. I was surprised to see Nokia peeking in, she doesn’t enters Tuctang’s room that’s why it’s surprising that she went in, and right then and there, I hugged her… she felt my pain again.

She died around 1am, February 19, I’m not at home that time, and I am still celebrating our CCP performance. When I went home, that’s when I knew Nokia died. We thought she would give up that Saturday, but she didn’t… instead she died the next day… right after my CCP performance. Till the very end, she still supported me, she knew that I wouldn’t get to focus on the performance if she died first, and hell yeah, I know I couldn’t.

The next morning was like a funeral when she was buried at our backyard. BYE NOKIA… WE ALL LOVE YOU… I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU FOR AS LONG AS I LIVE… LOVE YAH BUNSO =’(

PS: I was the one who named her Nokia since we got her when the Nokia phone craze started.

CCP HERE I COME!

FOR THE BROCHURESOME CASTS

AYUN OH!HAHA!

DRESSING ROOM

i am so lucky to pass the audition for CCP's Dalagang Bukid. I first audition to Sir Santillana, the director, then to Dr. Lopez, the musical coach of the said zarzuela.

though i did miss my social life since the practices started, (we are not allowed to make any absences, or else!), the friendship i gained on the rehearsals is more than enough =D not just that... performing in CCP is the greater deal here!

hai, finally it's show time! there are 3 groups of performers: Comparsa, Dalagang Bukid then Opera, which will all perform for the 3pm and 8pm gala night.

i wont forget our curtain call, jeymee, arvic, borja and i just made fun of it! we were making funny antics while the names of the performers were being recognized...
aaaw...kakamiss pala! 8D

I WANT MY COFFEE PRINCE!!! =D

c'mon... another koreanovela favorite... COFFEE PRINCE!

I knew it... from the teaser of GMA, i knew that i would definitely get hooked on this distinctive love story!

Choi Han Kyul (also known as Arthur in the tagalog version) is outright cute!!! I know some would disagree... but i dont care,hehe!


Go Eun Chan (also known as Andie) is a 'pretty boy' as well..haha!

The script's not that credible though, but the hell...it still amuses me =D

SHE BENGS!!!

OW YEAH THE BANGS FEVER IS BACK
GO DORA! GO DORA! HAHAHA!

SPICE GIRLS' VIDEO COMEBACK - Headlines (Friendship Never Ends)

they look a lot different now!!!

i know some of you just don't care anymore...

but i dunno, it's part of my childhood memoirs so it still somehow excites me to see them singing together again while doing those same old cheesy antics we used to see on tv…


only this time, im not the little girl anymore who is contented with the eye candy album they sold for SPICE WORLD which has a metallic color for each side of the tape (I remembered having the green one) =)

somehow, I did find them silly… I cant appreciate these girl groups as much as I adored them before. I want the band, I want the solo rnb artist, I want the rock star… and I believe Spice Girls isn’t one of them. Aaaw, honestly I felt nostalgic when I saw this video on tv, it’s like… am I that old??? Look at how they evolved… how Emma B. (baby spice) doesn’t seem to fit her name anymore? And how Victoria B. (posh spice) looks scarier now than Mel B. (scary spice)? And how Geri H. (ginger spice) became as sporty looking as Mel C. (sporty spice)?

Tsk2, I hope the young girls today can have their own experience of Spice Girls, their own share of Backstreet Boys moments… something that they could call their own. I mean, we adults may be disgusted by them… but these kids wouldn’t care as much as we didn’t care when we are of their age.

Come to think of it… they did have their own set of idols for their generation: PARIS HILTON, LINDSAY LOHAN, BRITNEY SPEARS…

Um… wait… hmm… I guess I’d probably settle for Spice Girls… or Hillary Duff maybe? =P