CHILD'S PLAY

Children make you want to start life over. ~Muhammad Ali

sometimes all they need is a playmate

no to domestic violence
papa jesus
selfish limelight
innocence of a girl
till boys do us part
hopeful
bullied
dead kid
naive
sunday afternoonjump

habulan

martyr

in the pictures: charlotte, charles, andrea and of course... aidan =D

TWO GUYS AND A POST

shout out to COY for our Wii Party last sunday at Redbox Trinoma!

IT WAS FUN!!!

i believe i would lose some weight if i play Wii sport everyday haha!
me and levy: the same freaks in the pic you have chosen haha!
THANKS PALAWAN GANG FROM YOURS TRULY & THE 4 OTHER LUCKY FRIENDS I BROUGHT W/ ME =D

*in case you're wondering why am I thanking Coy, click this RELATED ENTRY*


LET ME LEAVE YOU GUYS WITH THIS VIDEO OF FAFAFOL
-HALLELUJAH (BAMBOO)-

ANO BA YAN!!

despite the holiday cheers, please do let me just rant about some of my ultimate "ANO BA YAN!!" moments =D


EWE THE CHOCNUT CAKE!
ANO BA YAN! di masarap! hehe, sorry pero i just don't get the taste, 3 days na sya sa ref, they didn't like it either i guess!






Iba paren pag Chocnut talaga! love it!




FRIENDSTER GLITCH AGAIN!
ANO BA YAN! FOR THOSE WHO ARE STILL USING FRIENDSTER, EVER WONDERED WHY SOME OF YOUR DISTANT FRIENDS ARE SUDDENLY GIVING YOU MESSAGES AND COMMENTS? PERO MY GOD, PERVERTED NAMAN YUNG CONTENT? LIKE THIS PICTURE...

"CAUTION: AUTOMATIC COMMENTS AND VIDEOS!!!!

You probably got a message from one of your friend saying you'd been filmed and there's a web link that you tried opening but can't get through. Well, by doing that you're not only posting an automatic message to some of your friends but risking your computer for potential virus too....
So be aware of these messages and try to ignore or delete them. The people who's doing this are from the Philippines and their mimicking Youtube's URL web page.
Right now their posting automatic comments with the video of a sexy girl and if you tried opening it you'll post the exact same comment to some of your random friends...
In addition, if you receive a comment and/or message that has a video with a link that takes you to what looks like a friendster log-in page delete the comment and do not use the log-in link.
Someone has phished the account it came from and is trying to phish yours.
Using the log-in link will give them your log-in info and access to your account to do whatever they want.
To help prevent this. I'm asking everyone to repost this bulletin or send this message to all of your friends. With this we can have a much more better friendster experience.
Thanks to all.
Also, much better if you change your password."

TSK2... now i get it!

Friendster is slowly deteriorating huh!

MULTIPLY NA LANG TAYONG LAHAT!

BODIES AND... THAT'S IT!

ANO BA YAN! These dancers just disappoints me, sorry but it's kinda cheap, well some of them... eh kasi yung iba di talaga pretty, but they're sexy... yung iba 'mahina' talaga, but they're sexy.
yeah, body, that's their puhunan, they dance wearing skimpy outfits, WHAT FOR?? Hai, buti na lang they have the body, but that's just about it!

TAKIPSILIM YOUR FACE!
ANO BA YAN!
"ABS-CBN has bought the rights to make a tv version of the hit vampire novel "Twilight", ABS-CBN's CEO, Euegenio Lopez III signed a contract last December 6, 2008 for the tv adaptation of Twilight, the rights cost a more than a million dollars, the taping is set to start next year by February in Baguio, Tagaytay, Bukidnon and some parts will tape outside the country. And it will be directed by Cathy Garcia Molina, the tv adaptation will focus with the love story between Edward and Bella, this is much more than a drama, romance, but also fantasy. This is co-produce by Ignite Media Inc."

HAHAHA.... after Gossip Girls' Filipino version Lipgloss (in TV5), here comes another one of those scriptwriters lazy way of creating a good series. COPYCAT! Filipino version or your easy way out to get the audience's attention, palibhasa nag-hit yung original, that doesn't mean your version will!

Tabing Ilog (Dawson's Creek version) did well... but Munting Paraiso (7th Heaven version) definitely didn't!

SAYANG ANG REBOND!

ANO BA YAN! Remember from my previous post na nagpa-rebond ako? well guess what, i just wasted my thousands. 2 of my friends (cath and renz) decided to have their hair done, sumama kame ni justine... "encouraged" us to have a haircut... and whoala, we both cried after!!!

anyway... ang laki ng eyebags ko dito sa pic na to ah?
i probably should sleep na! nahnyt creatures! mwah!

RACE TO THE FINISH LINE

IT IS INEVITABLE... DEATH.

THE DEAD - MARKY CIELO
I was really surprised when i heard about Marky Cielo's death... my friend sent a group text message about it, and doubted her at first. But when I saw the vtr about his death in Showbiz Central, that's the time i dropped my jaw, shooked my head, and whispered: "OMG, di ako makapaniwala".

Not everyone knows Marky actually, but the good impression he showed to the viewers is enough for him to be recognized. I remembered how I really wished for him to win in Starstruck, I'm not really a fan of morenos but his looks just got this charm, the Igorot charm maybe.

20 years old, only had two decades to live. Some say it was suicide, I say it was a sad thought. I agree with other people's presumptions that he tried drugs though, got too much of it and died. I have always been proud on his good image, but was it too much that he decided to release himself through means of tablets or whatsoever? Don't blame us for thinking this way, if only his family can share the medical report then there will be no speculations at all!

Lovi Poe said this message in SIS: "alam mo naman na andito lang kami, isang text o tawag lang..YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE SOMETHING LIKE THAT"

and Glaiza de Castro's message: "sana maging peaceful ka kung san ka man naroroon ngayon..alam mo naman un eh...PWEDE MO NAMAN SABIHIN SAMIN"

and when Marky's mom was asked if it was a work related or personal problem, her mom said that it wasn't work related... let's all just read between the lines.

Marky has so much to give, but I guess good people really have higher tendency of dying early (hai, i'm safe). I wonder, what was he thinking that moment before he died? But whether it was suicide or not, he will still remain as one of the nicest actor of his generation. It was a total surprise, true enough, we can't really tell when we will reach the finish line.


HOPING NOT TO DIE - DURA DURA GANG INCIDENT
DURA DURA GANG- GROUP OF THEFT WHO SPITS ON THEIR VICTIMS TO DISTRACT THEM IN ORDER TO STEAL... KADIRI!

Me, and three other friends decided to watch 100 in Robinsons Galleria. We rode a GLiner bus going to Cainta. The bus was almost full so we decided to look for vacant seats at the back. Two guys unhesitatingly stood up to give us their seats... and i automatically doubted them because you can hardly meet such guys already (and ewe, they look like holdapers naman talaga noh!). Me and Marlyn were seated together while Cara and Jairo were seated at the back. Marlyn was just telling me of her experience on the "dura dura gang" when suddenly the guy standing beside us approached the girl seated at the right end of the back seat: "miss may dura ka sa kanang balikat mo". Me and marlyn were carefully looking at the girl, quite surprised since we were just talking about it seconds ago. My heartbeat went faster while waiting for Marlyn's go signal to go down (kahit nagbayad na kami, tsk, sayang!).

"Marlyn yung kaharap, katabi mo, at kalikod natin magkaka-kuntsaba yan"

The four of us, and the poor girl at the right end were surrounded by the "dura-dura gang"! Before we went down, Marlyn and Cara told the konduktor that there are suspected (actually di na suspected eh!) theft at the back. Hai, i wonder what happened to the girl we left, hope she went home safely.


THE DYING - CHRIS MARTINEZ' S 100
The Audience Award on this year's Cinemalaya, Best Actress for Mylene Dizon, Best Director and Best Screenplay Awards for Direk Chris, and the Best Supporting Actress Award for Eugene. This movie is about Joyce (Mylene D.), a cancer patient who only has 3 months to live. Knowing this she decided to write on post-its the things she would be doing before she dies. She was hopeless, three doctors already told her that there is no hope of curing. And so came the different ways of Joyce to live her last few months to the fullest.

I like Ruby's (Eugene D.) character, adding comic yet sweetness to the story. She is Joyce's bestfriend, and I guess she is the representation of "friendship". It was quite hard when Tessie Tomas' (Joyce's mother in the film) character came into picture. Anything that has got to do with motherhood can really make you cry. She is the representation of family. Lastly, I like Rod's (TJ Trinidad) and Emil's (Ryan Eigenman) role, one to whom Joyce has a secret affair with, and the other one is Joyce's first love. Obviously they represent love. Altogether they spiced up Joyce's struggle to make her last three months more meaningful and worthwhile.

I admire Joyce because I have always been afraid of death, who isn't right? Thoughts of dying is one of my phobias, that's why i really wanted to watch this film thinking that this would help me (it did I guess since I'm writing about death after all). Joyce is truly a valiant woman, giving a positive view on death. Being more hopeful than sucking up to hopelessness.
And if I discover that I only have few months to live, the things that I would want to do are:
- tour Europe
- pero Bora muna!
- sing like a rock star in front of a large audience
- have a photo exhibit
- direct a film and do an advertisement
- serve the PAWS foundation
- drive and drift
- eat all guilty pleasures
- get intimate with guys... and i mean guySSSS...
- but after that, in front of this guy's over confident face, I will tell 'him' how much he means to me, then i'll slap him two times for making me cry a gallon of tears, then hug him tightly after, kiss him passionately... tapos syempre gets nyo na yung sunod...
- tell everyone... each and everyone... who made a mark in my life how much i love them, then thank them... most especially, i will ask for forgiveness.
- compose and sing a Christian song
- lastly, i will go to Calaruega, talk to Him for as long as I want to, then attend Christian services in three different churches (Victory, TNJ, and Jzone).

We will all go there... una unahan lang daw sabi nga nila... each minute brings us closer to the finish line. Simply enjoy the race, that's the only precaution we can do.



"Naalala ko sabi ni daddy... if everyone wants to go to heaven, then why nobody wants to die?" - Joyce (100)

DONT JUST READ THEM... WIN THEM!

i guess Christmas is all about giving after all since even bloggers are into it!

yeah, we don't just write, we give prizes... no... THEY give prizes... AND I JOIN THEIR CONTESTS =D

latest contest from a blogger (don't be confused with "blog contest" it's a more difficult game =P) that i discovered is the 12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS, 12 DAYS OF GIVEAWAYS AT MUSIC PICKS BLOG!
sound exciting? well guess what, the prizes are a lot more exciting because it's a surprise! GULAT KA NO? (weh corny haha)

WANNA KNOW THE PRIZE? clue: MUSIC RELATED
better join now to win
simply go here: Music Blog Philippines and discover what the hell those freakin' prizes are!

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you'll never know, you can be just as lucky as me, i joined Coy's Strike a Palawan Gang Pose and Win contest (uso pala mahahabang title ng contest no?hehe) and I actually won! kaya red box here we come, although i am still waiting for cokski's (Coy) reply... thanks Palawan Gang!

i won because of this picture with levy


kaya tumabi na yung mga pics nyo ng bundok at beach, di nakakalibre sa red box yan,haha!

hope i could meet the gang too... ciao!

ONE MORE OINK...

I just hope ours do come back. I’m losing time.



Will you change that love or love the change?
–One More Chance

GANON TALAGA SA BASTE?

i went to school last Tuesday (November 4) to enroll for 2nd semester.

Ang tagal umandar ng mga sasakyan sa recto going to legarda side so i decided na maglakad na lang to look for the right jeepney. Kung baga ako yung aandar para makahanap sila ng pasahero, langyang traffic yan!

Anyway, nung papunta na ko sa baste (san sebastian college) napansin ko agad yung dami ng tao sa labas ng gate... i wondered what's going on. Pag deretso ko sa baste, wow, may pila sa labas papuntang gate nila. They're in civilian and looks like they're gonna enroll. Deretso paren ako, aba may pila paren! ang liit nung daan so if feel mo magpapansin that time, sana dumaan ka dun kasi if you're one of the students lining up, you'll see yourself just observing the people walking through. Yung haba ng pila nkakagulat, as in lagpas na sa vicinity ng baste... i have to walk across them na kasi baka di ako makalabas sa pila to get a jeepney if i kept on walking.

now, i appreciate the process of enrollment sa ceu, kung tutuusin hassle free naman talaga eh, nagpapa-hassle lang saken yung schedule, maarte kasi ko sa sked eh, hehe!

I am not ultimately bashing baste, i believe this is a good school, i was just surprised that they have to line up outside. Mali yun. Enrollment means paying their tuition fees, let them experience every peso of it.

pero in fairness to san sebastian, i like their player JC na kasama sa survivor philippines. and spoiler guys... sya ang sole survivor... badtrip xe it's already announced to certain websites, mismong staff pa nga daw minsan ng GMA nadudulas in some public places eh (the hearsays), pero yeah, sya talaga! well, either kiko, him, vern naren, yung gusto ko naman manalo eh, so pwede na! cute cute jc congrats! =D


PS: from ohmski - di daw totoo. gumawa na ang statements sa kumalat na chismis. - i may be wrong if he's the winner, but if he is, i have nothing to complain about =D

JUST STAND UP feat. mariah, beyonce, rihanna, etc.

here, in this video, are the amazing female singers in FASHION ROCKS that worked together to support the Cancer's cause:
Mariah Carey, Beyonce, Mary J. Blige, Rihanna, Fergie, Sheryl Crow, Miley Cyrus, Melissa Etheridge, Ashanti, Natasha Bedingfield, Keyshia Cole, Ciara, Leona Lewis, LeAnn Rimes, Nicole Scherzinger, and Carrie Underwood.

why is nicole scherzinger not in the picture? well actually melissa etheridge, sheryl crow & leann rimes are featured in the song but didnt get to perform so they had nicole scherzinger to do it

anyway...

carrie underwood's short...

mariah is wearing a shirt, wow not too obscene, congrats..

i dont like beyonce's hair, probably rihanna's influences =P

love fergie's voice, very manly... bwahaha..

i don't get nichole's outfit..

ciara didn't have a solo part?

is that natasha bedingfield with the white pants? pasaway...

leona lewis looked like a mariah clone..

keyshia cole and ashanti... ow, yeah i almost forgot they're there =P

mary j. blige looks like beyonce's mother here...

and

what the hell are you doing there miley cyrus?? she spoiled the song, she should have lowered her voice a bit... "Things get better....What..ever!"? well things get better miley!! whatever...

christina aguilera or alicia keys should have been there don't you think?

but nevertheless, i still love the song!!!

SO LAST SEM SUCKS (fao is back!)

Our net got busted for a month (whew! total sacrifice!) so I have to catch up on my photos and page (bare with me if I upload overdue pics =D). Speaking of which, as I was browsing on my pending photos, I have realized (benhur kaw ba yan?) how much I missed my old friends. No, not the literal “old” ones, but my friends from high school and previous semesters.

I miss my high school buddies, it’s still different when I’m with them, primarily because they’re my batch mates. See, it’s still a whole lot different when you’re with people of the same age or older than you, coz ultimately, they make a lot of sense. My high school buddies are my sanity, they may be practical, but ain’t cheap… definitely!

I miss the original 1D! Two consecutive Saturdays, I, together with some of the original 1D, met up at Pier1 and at Gif’s bday. Simple yet fulfilling. 1D is our section when we were in 1st year college. Yes, these are my first set of friends in ceu (not technically speaking though, hehe). Some shift courses, some changed school, but I dunno, being with them still brings smile to my face. I even have a very very long blog dedicated to them in friendster. Yes some may be younger than me, but if I’ll compare them to the bunch of kiddos I’m meeting at present, I bet you, they’re way C – O – O – L to deal with. And I’m quite proud that my little sisters before are now just like me, gimikeras na! Reich, Garret, and of course Cara, they know how to party already, sometimes you really have to bite on the other side to experience ‘FUN’, right gurls?

I miss my St. Joseph’s college friends (kumpleto talaga ung name ng st.jo?haha). See I’ve spent my 1st semester last school year in that school. Gawd, I had so much fun in that one sem! You know what’s cool about that school, besides you being friends with everyone because of the small population, is actually the fact that social climbers are less tolerable there compared to ceu *but I soooo love ceu, im not generalizing everyone*. The girlfriends I had in st.jo are incomparable! They’re so humble, yet bitchy, ow yeah, that’s what I like about them! And what I meant by bitchy, is being more experienced in life, therefore we can relate to each other, no KJ’s whatsoever. But there are some drama queens in the way, many immature honestly, but you know why I still miss them? Because they’re immaturity lead us to be Blair Waldorf (gossip girls) or Regina George (mean girls)! And what’s so special about that you may ask? Simple… it ain’t boring!

Lastly I miss my college friends from other schools, mainly Letran, UST, APC, Trinity, etc. (haha, halo halo tlaga kme). I miss my ex-bestfriend Ryan, or my UAAP angels Lexie and Jelaine. I miss my macho papa Mackoy, Poknat’s crew. I miss Domingo and his sisig. I miss the good times (with Mo? haha). Those moments when all we wanna do is have a joy ride and end up having a very emo conversation outside Select convenient store. Or Jam playing the guitar while everyone else plays sober even if we’re evidently fucked up and wasted already. I miss the advices… I miss the real college students.

This semester has been a whole lot different compared to my past semesters. Maybe because this is the first time I’ve been the irregular student. But I dunno, if I’ll sum up this semester, minus the academic side of it, I would say it was plain boring. Don’t get me wrong, I still love my present friends, I treasure them actually, but if given the choice, I know I’ll go for my ‘old’ friends. That is one of the reasons why I had at least one subject with section B, I don’t want to be detached from the warm group (borgy, marlyn, etc.). Maybe Jairo understands me, he seems to be enjoying the B section.

To simplify it, I miss being with the “real college barkada”. Do you ever remember a time when you’re younger and you’ll see college barkadas and realize (benhur again?haha) how cool they are? You hear their conversations and jest that you just can’t wait to go to college? That’s what I’m missin’! But of course I have a choice, I can still meet up with my ‘old’ friends, but considering my 32units semester, the best thing to do is to go with the flow. I’m not used to this though; I don’t like to be in a group where they never get tired to push each other’s egos. I want the group whom I can hang out with during Saturday nights. Or girlfriends I can have a chat with in Starbucks (or any café for that matter). I miss the convoys and joy rides. I want my friends who know the “good” places, not the cheap ones. I’m not being judgmental, I just miss being with the friends I’m used to hang with. The group where I will actually grow, this sem has been a boring roller coaster indeed, whew, it’s hard to put your studies on top of your list!

Finally it’s sembreak! Wake up lovelife, wake up night life, wake up chikkas, wake up vanity… it’s time to pamper myself. Next sem, I hope to have a better one, a wilder one to be exact!

AUGUSTRATION!

(august frustrations)
It’s the start of the ‘Ber’ months and I hope some wishes will do come true… after all, it’s just a few days away from Christmas… hai, hope the coming months will be a lot better!

I HATE THIS THREE LETTERS: S L R

Single- lens reflex camera, when can I have one? Hai, I swear that when my dad calls from abroad again I will never forget to ask him to buy me one. I know it’s expensive but maybe we can work it out, marame naman sa quiapo eh. I don’t know but I think… or rather… I believe that I have it, given the proper gadget… I can pursue my niche in photography.

Right now, I am stuck with Cybershot, not so cyber for me though. But thank you Lord for all the blessings.

NOW THIS THREE NUMBERS: 1 6 8

Yeah, I have been planning to shop in station 168 since July actually, and yet until now, I haven’t gone anywhere near Tutuban. To be honest, I’ve only been to Tutuban, Divisoria or Station 168 for less than 5 times only, considering that I am studying in Ubelt and I actually reside only somewhere in Pureza. Whenever I have savings for my shopping journey in 168, gimmicks, biglaang inuman, school expenditures get in my way, argh! I envy those who have showed me GOOD stuffs they’ve bought in Tutuban, with a very GOOD price as well.

I have new clothes though, yet I prefer to buy cheaper ones this time. But thank you Lord for all the blessings.

AND THIS NUMBER: T W O (2)

I have joined the recent CEU’s SELAMS Debate Contest. I am teamed up with Fritz and Keene, it’s their first time to join, while this is my second time. I am very fortunate because the first time I joined last 2006, our group grabbed the best debating team =D This year’s premise is “Federalism as the key solution to the present economic crisis”. I have to admit, it was nerve cracking, brain crushing, yet very challenging! We are on the opposition side, and on the very last minute we decided to put me from the position of deputy leader of the Opposition to Leader of the Opposition. I was surprised myself when all the jitters vanished and all I wanna do is scream out all the points of information we have congregated. But somehow I wasn’t able to do it. Some saw my effort, but I didn’t. We ended up as the 2nd best debating team, and it was even a tie between us and team B (there are 4 teams/ 2 premises). The funny thing is there aren’t enough silver medals since the remaining medals are bronze (the tie wasn’t expected of course), and those silver medals were handed down to team B since they’re the 1st one to come up stage. But of course we will still get our silver medals, to follow up. Now why am I frustrated? Simple, because being in 2nd place is the most crucial of them all. When you’re the 3rd, it’s easy to accept that maybe, you really did fall short. No need to complain if you’re the 1st. But being the 2nd, it makes me wanna ask myself: “If we did better, just a little more push to be better, could we have won?” Being in 2nd place is like being ‘almost there’. ALMOST!

They said that around 30 in our college were screened for the debate, so the chosen 12 who competed were the cream of the crop. I’ve received congratulations and praises after though, but still I guess I expected more from myself since we won the first time I joined. But thank you Lord for all the blessings.

FINALLY THESE LETTERS: L B S

Ow yeah, lbs, or pounds! This time many can relate to me… RAISE YOUR HANDS IF YOU’RE ONE OF US! Ang mga pumalya sa diet! Sorry naman, pero it’s so hard! Considering my tight, tiring and terrible schedule, the only fortress for relaxation besides sleeping and texting ‘him’ is to eat. I WANT TO HATE DINNER, BUT DINNER DOESN’T HATE ME =( Ow well, what shall I do, I’m gaining weight, I’m losing the sexy figure (waaaah, kabog!). Summer was hell for me… that was the time I bloated big time (if only bloated means bloated with water)! Anyone wants to hit a punching bag, my arms are very much eager to help you. Or anyone in need for a support in swimming, my bilbils (can anyone tell me the English of this word?) are very ready to help you float in water. And of course, want palo-palo for your labada? Or for anyone’s initiation maybe? My fatty pata is on the go to serve you!

*C’MON LET’S NOT EXPECT ANY BODY PICTURE HERE, PUHLEASE, I’LL DRINK MORE FIT&RIGHT FIRST BEFORE I DO THAT, DESPERATE MEASURES CAN MAKE YOU VULNERABLE TO ADVERTISEMENT*

I think I am fat, but they say I am only chubby (wow ha, is that a relief?), I miss my curves, but I still get guys though, haha! I hate being fat, my chest can’t get any bigger. I want to attract perverts no more =P But still thank you Lord for all the blessings.

YEAH AUGUSTRATIONS…

August frustrations.

I am only human, I do complain, I do get disappointed, I don’t always get what I want.

But then I also realized that I shouldn’t be frustrated at all, that I have survived, that I didn’t cry a river for whatever reasons lately, that I have a Cybershot while the rest settle for less, that I can still plan to shop while the rest can’t even squeeze it in their budget, that I am in 2nd place while the rest didn’t even made the list… and that I am gaining weight, while the unfortunates have nothing to eat.

THANK YOU LORD FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS!

"...? "

How much do you treasure a past? How can a person affect you so much that you’ve spent two years of your life having different relationships, but still, yes still… you know it’s still him. How many times have you tried burning the bridges down? How long can you stand the endless impossibilities of that moment to happen again?

What is the purpose of a person investing his / her feelings for someone, only to find out that it’s not gonna be reciprocated at all. What is the bottom line of two individuals showing same affection, yet are questioned by their own feelings. What do you do when all you’ve done is to make him a better man, only to find out that you made yourself less of a person?

Where will I begin to start the many reasons on why I think he’s special? Where do you go when he starts to love someone new? Where did we stop and where did all these feelings started… again. Where am I in your heart, and where do I stand in your life?

Why do we always end up sending sweet messages yet we are only friends now. Why can I not know the reasons on why you’re still here, I lost you but not really. Why did I met you, remembering the very day you were introduced to me, I can’t help but ask myself… why did I fell for that one in a hundred smile.

When will something so special happen again? When do I tell you that I miss you, and this time you’ll believe it? When will I hug that special boy who made me realize that true enough, embraces are much sweeter than kisses. When can I hear from him that he appreciates me, even just the appreciation, that will do, he doesn’t have to love me.

Who is he, carrying the smile of a boy and the eyes of a lover? Who is that special someone that made me strong, made me selfless, and made me so happy all at the same time? Who is that boy I’ve asked God to take care of, that boy I will never forget, that boy who I believe will turn out to be a brave man after all.

Who is he and why do I miss him? When will I see him again and what will happen after? Where do we go from here and how will all these end?

“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day. Letters to a Young Poet”

PS: as I write this, a message was sent to me from that special boy… he said he miss me =)

OVERLOADED LESSONS IN COLLEGE LIFE

Sorry I wasn’t able to share my thoughts for a while; our computer needs to be reformat. Yeah some of my files were lost. The pictures were a-ok but, argh, my iTunes is gone! All the songs were gone! So much for my ipod =(

Anyway, that is the least of my concern, well not actually, I already have tons of songs on my ipod… damn… buhbye =( But the worst worry right now is my incoming semester when I enrolled 2 days ago and finally got my subjects.

I’ll give a little background first. I transferred school last school yr. but only stayed there for 1^st sem (because my mom thinks that this school will just worsen my tardiness) and so I went back to my old school for 2^nd sem. Whew, I missed a lot of subjects alright! Almost all of their subjects for 1^st sem became my back subjects, tell me… HOW AM I ABLE TO GRADUATE NOW?? =(

Because of that case, the very cool Ms. Lucero decided to put me to the section of the lower yrs. so that I can get their subjects and at the same time take my other 2 majors from my original batch. Yup yup, it was OVERLOADING… 32 UNITS… 40 thousand plus pesosesoses!!! For those who aren’t in college yet, this number of units is synonymous to headache, nosebleed, or suicide… depending on your capacity. Whew, I do hope it’s not suicide for me!

Honestly I’m scared, my main problem as a student is time management. Yes I am always late, and just when I thought the storm has ended, it rained again… I have 2 subjects with a 7AM schedule – BOTH MAJOR SUBJECTS. Ms. Lucero also said that if I fail even just one subject, there’s a possibility that they’d de-load me, meaning they would cut some of my units right in the middle of the semester… waaaah! God help me! Okay, for those who are asking why I let this happen, simple… this is the only way that I can graduate on time, see, I was supposed to be wearing a toga last march already. I guess my 1^st semester isn’t gonna be a splendid carousel after all, a dreadful roller coaster perhaps! I have no idea how I can possibly sustain a love life with that schedule. Well not that I am putting that on my priorities, but admit it, an inspiration may be of good help right?

I am starting to be cynical; I hope I can make it. For those who are only starting college, don’t ever dare to play around with your grades. This is close to the real world, you can’t just give an apple to the teacher to give you incentives. Be punctual, it didn’t became a habit for me… look what happened! Modesty aside but teachers always get disappointed because despite my academic capabilities, my records fail because of either disciplinary reasons (high school days) or attendance (college days).

I want to graduate, but I still want to be a student. It’s stressful, it’s a weekly dilemma… to gimmick or to study… to drink or to read… to pursue a lover or to push a goal. Hmm, brain freeeezeee! Hard to answer!

I guess whenever we will encounter these dilemmas though, always remember Bob Ong’s message:

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!)."

Ooops, I think he has a better advice than this…=S

"Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan..."

There you go! I need not explain what the best option to consider is =)