Thursday, June 12, 2008


Sorry I wasn’t able to share my thoughts for a while; our computer needs to be reformat. Yeah some of my files were lost. The pictures were a-ok but, argh, my iTunes is gone! All the songs were gone! So much for my ipod =(

Anyway, that is the least of my concern, well not actually, I already have tons of songs on my ipod… damn… buhbye =( But the worst worry right now is my incoming semester when I enrolled 2 days ago and finally got my subjects.

I’ll give a little background first. I transferred school last school yr. but only stayed there for 1st sem (because my mom thinks that this school will just worsen my tardiness) and so I went back to my old school for 2nd sem. Whew, I missed a lot of subjects alright! Almost all of their subjects for 1st sem became my back subjects, tell me… HOW AM I ABLE TO GRADUATE NOW?? =(

Because of that case, the very cool Ms. Lucero decided to put me to the section of the lower yrs. so that I can get their subjects and at the same time take my other 2 majors from my original batch. Yup yup, it was OVERLOADING… 32 UNITS… 40 thousand plus pesosesoses!!! For those who aren’t in college yet, this number of units is synonymous to headache, nosebleed, or suicide… depending on your capacity. Whew, I do hope it’s not suicide for me!

Honestly I’m scared, my main problem as a student is time management. Yes I am always late, and just when I thought the storm has ended, it rained again… I have 2 subjects with a 7AM schedule – BOTH MAJOR SUBJECTS. Ms. Lucero also said that if I fail even just one subject, there’s a possibility that they’d de-load me, meaning they would cut some of my units right in the middle of the semester… waaaah! God help me! Okay, for those who are asking why I let this happen, simple… this is the only way that I can graduate on time, see, I was supposed to be wearing a toga last march already. I guess my 1st semester isn’t gonna be a splendid carousel after all, a dreadful roller coaster perhaps! I have no idea how I can possibly sustain a love life with that schedule. Well not that I am putting that on my priorities, but admit it, an inspiration may be of good help right?

I am starting to be cynical; I hope I can make it. For those who are only starting college, don’t ever dare to play around with your grades. This is close to the real world, you can’t just give an apple to the teacher to give you incentives. Be punctual, it didn’t became a habit for me… look what happened! Modesty aside but teachers always get disappointed because despite my academic capabilities, my records fail because of either disciplinary reasons (high school days) or attendance (college days).

I want to graduate, but I still want to be a student. It’s stressful, it’s a weekly dilemma… to gimmick or to study… to drink or to read… to pursue a lover or to push a goal. Hmm, brain freeeezeee! Hard to answer!

I guess whenever we will encounter these dilemmas though, always remember Bob Ong’s message:

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!)."

Ooops, I think he has a better advice than this…=S

"Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan..."

There you go! I need not explain what the best option to consider is =)