TUMBLNG THE SITES

okay im currently hooked up with my new Tumblr page =D

i have always been curious on how this thing works after seeing it on some of the blogs i've reviewed in candymag. I did find it cute right away actually, being an easy access for you to post SOME pictures (large number of pics are not advisable here).

One more thing, I believe Tumblr does fit me since i love to "play" around photoshop and do some creative scribblings as a hobby. See Tumblr is like a place for graphic junkies slash emo slash photo journalists slash coolness (haha). Don't get me wrong though, i believe all of the sites that i am currently signed in to are cool (and that will include you my blogspot Ü),
but these sites have their forte that make them stand out from the rest...

MUSIKEROS!
the social media that lets you upload music and at the same time embed them to your other sites. This is for the music lovers in the house (like me of course), i can put my favorite songs in a playlist and share them. This is web's first embeddable music and video playlists.

THE DOWNSIDE: i don't visit my imeem page anymore, the songs are only played for 30secs.argh!

FOREIGNERS!
haha, well this used to be the conyo version of friendster 6 years ago. Don't be surprised when foreigners start to add you. You can do so much with myspace, esp.if you like to design your profile layout, they kinda have all the perks to do it. This has also been a site for aspiring musicians bec.they can upload their music or videos and get some fans. Colbie Callait for example, she gained popularity by uploading her music in myspace, and whoala, the rest is history.

THE DOWNSIDE: i will later cancel my account in myspace bec.i don't use it anymore, people from whatever countries just keep on sending me lame messages and inviting me to events i can't obviously attend to bec.I am far away from their places, hello! Myspace lost its popularity in the Philippines even before it became a hit.

VIDEOGRAPHERS!
need not explain, this site is for the video junkies. Those who like to record themselves or watch other people's creative or stupid juices on the boob tube. If Imeem and Myspace is a place for musician to gain popularity by uploading their music, Youtube can give you the fame by simply uploading your video. Singers like Charice Pempengco, so as Gabe Bondoc, Passion and Jason Dy became popular through Youtube. Aside from these singers, Happy Slip and other cool discoveries in Youtube became hits too! Video blogging (or vlog) became popular and video projects became exciting.

THE DOWNSIDE: if you're not popular in youtube, don't expect people to add you as their friend, just be contented browsing those videos, it's still fun anyway!

WRITERS!
Also known as Blogspot. This blog publising system is obviously a place for bloggers, for online journalists. Those who like to blah about stuff, or vent out their emotions through writing, this is exactly your place for comfort. It's quite easy to use, you can also put photos, videos, etc., but like what i have said, they all have their forte, and from the name itself, this is best for bloggers, for writers... like you!

THE DOWNSIDE: most of the time, fellow bloggers are the only one who knows your blogspot, and only those who are interested in blogging would most probably sign in to blogger, so this is not a place for social web encounters in case you're expecting numerous followers / subscribers.

PHOTOSHOPPERS!
or those who like to edit stuffs in photoshop, this site like what i have mentioned is a good place for design junkies. Cool statements, funny caricatures and awesome shots are posted here. Each posts can be reblog by any tumblr user. Reblog is simply posting someone's post into your tumblr. This is like your media shortcut, you can post text, images, video, links, quotes, and audio on your Tumblelog, a short-form blog. But of course cute designs are still the favorite. You are updated by other people's posts by following them, the more followers you have, the higher your Tumblarity gets! See cute statements in tumblr, and make some of yours too!

THE DOWNSIDE: Tumblrs don't really care much about long journal entries, and that's exactly the purpose of this post, get a blogger instead! Also, some tumblrs post nonsense messages on good designs, is it for tumblarity's sake? i don't know! I hope tumblr would gain popularity though!

ARTISTS!
whew, this is the bastion for real artists! A place to promote your artworks. Not only can they exhibit them but discuss them as well with fellow geniuses. Digital art, Traditional art, Photography, etc.are categorized here for convenient searching. Ow yeah, you can search cool images here (but consider the credit of course). Not only that, you can search for brushes here, how cool is that! I actually envy those good artists in deviant art, kudos!

THE DOWNSIDE: i really don't know, i don't have a deviant art account, i haven't heard any bad feedback yet as well.


PHOTOGRAPHERS!
this is a good place for photographer's online portfolio. Multiply is a good site for uploading tons of pictures and organize it in an album. It's also a good place for those who like to pimp their page, those addicted to css codes, i for example had done 6 layouts for my multiply page already. Your music, blogs, events, photos, etc.are well organized with multiply, making it look like your own domain site. That is why many photographers and sellers use this to promote their business.

THE DOWNSIDE: well anonymous viewing is not possible here so stalkers are not welcome, unless its for public viewing. Some also find it complicated to use Multiply, but for me I am still a fan!

BROADCASTERS!
well this is basically for those who like to broadcast their whereabouts or be updated by other people's lives. This is a micro-blogging service that enables its users to send and read messages known as tweets. Many celebrities use this and I believe they are the ones who are fitted for twitter bec.most probably their lives are sensible enough to follow, esp.if you're a fan. Twitter has been helpful and evident on the recent Ondoy typhoon, indeed this is for broadcasters in the making, making twitter a venue to disseminate information, hopefully relevant ones.

THE DOWNSIDE: Well I don't have twitter and i don't think i will need it at all.

MULTITASKERS!
this is because facebook is all about multitasking. I guess some can relate to me that we tend to play our favorite facebook game while checking our friend's recent wall posts, tagging our friend's photos, commenting on someone's hilarious status, answering an irrelevant quiz and finally checking what God wants us to know. There is so much to do with facebook! Pet Society, Texas Holdem Poker, Farmville, etc.are also some of the famous attraction on facebook users (excluding me). Facebook is similar to Myspace although Myspace use HTML / CSS codes while facebook uses plain text. I find facebook easy and simple, esp.on the comment part, typing or liking a post and blabbing it out to all of your facebook friends is easy as 1, 2, 3. So far, Facebook is the most popular among my peers.

THE DOWNSIDE: better update your email notification option if you don't want your inbox to get flooded with updates. The photo tagging can be a lil bit annoying sometimes (c'mon don't intentionally tag your friend's silly moments on cam, insensitive mor*ns!). Lastly, in facebook... everyone's updated, your whole conversation is posted, funny, haha!

LOYALISTA!
consistent, "I will not leave my friendster, damn you all social-network sites!", let's admit it, we are all friendster babies. Before having our facebook, multiply, etc., we did got hooked up with friendster right? Many relationships failed bec.of infidelity discoveries in friendster, many fights revealed on the friendster bulletin, many girls screamed bec.of the sweet testimonial their crush gave them, many boys smiled with the hot chics they added, many assumed and concluded stories on why this person viewed them, many... and I mean many, had their little share of stories with friendster. It was 2003 when I started friendster, and now, using friendster is like social suicide. I don't think I will cancel my friendster account, though I'm not updating it anymore, i just think it's one of my links to the past, esp.those testimonials that somehow reminded you on how you were few years back.

THE DOWNSIDE: Oh well, too many gangsta slash emo slash social climbers slash old men have polluted the site! And sad to say, almost everyone I know uses facebook already.

So many sites to browse right? I wonder what's next year's hit will be... and I wonder who will be forgotten eventually.

Time to sign up... time to cancel some. CHOOSE WHERE YOU BELONG. Post the real you. THIS IS NOT A POPULARITY CONTEST.

PS: i just noticed, most of their logos are on the shade of Blue, coincidence?

PRAYER MOUNTAIN

late post.
cool place...
prayer mountain in paenaan... good for sould searching! ;)

FLOODED WITH SCARS

Two Sundays ago when I got this second degree burn on my right leg by an exhaust pipe (tambutso) of a motorcycle, I didn’t panic at first, not until me and my friend went to the hospital to have it checked and cleaned. The doctor told me numerous precautions, prescriptions and directions that I should abide for the fast recovery of this burned skin. I automatically thought of the hassle it will give me, and most especially, the hassle it will give my mom once she knew about this.

Being a concerned mom of course, upon hearing this, she automatically asked me the medicines to buy and even told me to go to the clinic near us for a second opinion. But I still felt a little embarrassed since the medication is not part of the budget of course.

Anyway, I got to go to school despite what happened, beside the bandage on my right leg and me walking a little less usual, everything else is pretty much normal. I managed to finish our tvc editing, submit the company brochure, update my clients at work and check the business, ow yeah, productive still.

Then came this weekend, the Ondoy weekend… the craziest Saturday of the year. I woke up at our living room surprised to see the flood almost reaching our sofa seats, I have to step on chairs in order for me to go to our bed since it’s higher and we’re pretty positive that flood won’t reach it anymore.

But WE WERE WRONG. Now I really have to go somewhere higher, I cannot afford to soak my right leg on the flood because of my burned skin, a little step on the flood would surely give me tons of infections, just look how big my open skin is! I got really scared, I was shaking! Good thing my brother came and they decided to bring me upstairs where my cousin lives. Yuri (my brother) gave me a piggy ride from bed to the other house upstairs, with the flood almost at waist level. TRUST, I JUST HAVE TO SURRENDER MY TRUST! Before even riding on my brother’s back, trusting him that he won’t let me fall on the flood has been hard for me. This may be funny but true… trusting myself that I am already thin enough for him to sustain my weight was hard too. And as my brother walked on the flood with me on his back, I just closed my eyes, with my legs bended enough not to reach the flood, and prayed that I won’t fall, that I won’t fall… that I won’t fall.

Thank God I didn’t fall, hai! I stayed at my cousin’s house, alone at their living room texting people on how they are. I was just lying on their sofa until dark wondering what’s happening at home. I can hear the hard pour of rain as I pray. I just felt helpless that time! I should be downstairs helping them with our things, that’s what I thought. But I was there, upstairs, anxiously praying for the rain to stop.


And now at this moment of time when true service is everywhere, the more I felt crippled. The more I felt that there’s less I can do.

I felt more pain this week on my right leg, this time walking has been a struggle for me, my skin’s contracting already that’s why the pain while stretching it as I walk, or even stand, hasn’t been that tolerable anymore.

Yes, since Saturday all I did was lie down, or sit, I can’t go out with the fear of falling in the middle of the road once I cannot stand the pain already. It was my first time to go to work today since the accident happened. My boss fetched me here at home, and at the office, I made all possible work loads I can do without standing. My client brought me lunch instead of me going to greenhills where we usually eat, then after driving me home, I automatically called our employee at Marikina for further updates on the casualties.

But the thing is, I WANTED TO BE THERE, I WANTED TO HELP. Knowing myself, I should have gone to wherever foundation there is to volunteer, I should be downstairs at those times when my family was struggling from flood. I should be visiting my numerous friends from the east to extend a hand. But where am I the whole time? In front of the television waiting for updates, watching the non-stop advertisements to volunteer and help, hearing the testimonials of people who have actually done their share of service. I go online and I see people of my age and younger sharing their joys for having been able to help. And the more I felt useless. The camaraderie I saw was heart warming, some call it people power at a different perspective, and I just wanted to be a part of it.

The accident brought me not just physical pain but emotional torture as well. Just imagine the feeling of having an ordinary wound and making it 10 times worse. I would have to feel the pain every time I clean it (and I clean it every time!). Me, being an outgoing person, is now limited with few movements, and yes with few places to go. People around me are moving back and forth, making a difference after Ondoy’s tragedy, while I am stuck at home trying to make myself stand up and walk again.

I wonder what will happen to me on our thesis defense, on the Adfest, on the awarding; I just can’t believe I won’t be able to fully savor the moment. No drinking sessions (since I am under medication), no dancing, can’t swim, all these things, I have to accept until sembreak! If only I can rewind that time before riding that motorcycle, or that time when we stopped before the stoplight, just bring me back before that time I burned my skin.

SCARS, THEY WILL ALWAYS REMIND YOU ON HOW STUPID YOU’VE BECOME. This one is a big reminder alright… literally! It will leave a mark on my right leg already, a bitter remembrance if I may call it. Yes, hard to say, and I surely regret what happened, yet there’s nothing I can do anymore.

Houses ruined, lives lost, people shattered, same with me and the people who got affected with typhoon Ondoy, the country is left with a scar, a very big and tragic scar. Let this scar be a reminder for everyone, wisdom are scars in disguise after all. So many lessons reflected with a single hit of rain, this rain estimated to be a 31 DAYS OF RAIN CRAMMED IN 6 HOURS, it surely burned the country’s skin of so many realizations, well for most of us I hope.


LET’S PLANT TREES - man against nature is a dangerous battle!
LIVE A SIMPLER LIFE – one flood can take everything away in a snap.
LOVE ONE ANOTHER AT ALL TIMES – we don’t need another Ondoy to
do that don’t we?
PRAY, PRAY, PRAY – the best defense we can ever have!

And last but not the least…

BE THANKFUL – for all it’s worth, you still have each other, you still have numerous countrymen willing to help you, you are still alive, Ondoy can’t let Filipinos down… right?

And so I thank you Lord, that despite my disability, you didn’t let me fall, thank you for with this big scar you have given me, I saw how important my every step is… I am excited to walk painlessly again; my legs would be a lot different after this though…

IT MAY LOOK UNPRETTY OUTSIDE, BUT SCAR TISSUES ARE DEFINITELY STRONGER THAN REGULAR TISSUES, A WISER ONE TOO HOPEFULLY! ;D


Typhoon Pepeng’s coming… let’s all pray for everyone’s safety. Nobody knows His plans for us, but I am 100% sure that He never wanted to cause us such pain. Yet if we feel like crying, do so, at this moment of time we can’t blame ourselves for being hurt, feel the pain, be patient, and then leave everything up to God.

EXHAUSTING

i just felt a little sad today, i was browsing some pictures and saw one which includes an old friend in it. I don't know, there's part of me that misses him once in a while, and one of those days is today.

I just finished doing my thesis (which actually brought a smile on my face), and i haven't started any layout for my advertising yet. School has been pretty much a pressure for me, certain issues and work loads really drag my energy down to the next level. Exhaustion, can't help it.

Just a while ago while thinking of a good concept for our company brochure and print ad, a person crossed my mind, i suddenly said to myself: "it could have been less harder if we are still friends", and what i meant by friend is the friend I can consult on with my ideas, the friend i can confide my frustrations with, the friend who hates to see a girl crying but would patiently let me cry while i am ranting on random stuffs.

I was exhausted with so many things to do, but the biggest factor for my exhaustion is the feeling of being near the person who crushes your being, and you can't do anything but stay near, because that is how professionalism should be.

I started discovering the joy and pain of productions with him, and I am painstakingly continuing it without him. I imagined advertising subject last summer as something I would surely look forward to, and he knew it very well, having been a listener to my numerous plans and ideas.

And now, sitting in front of him and talking about our plans in advertising has been a poker game for me. Give him the poker face, that's your only salvation.

Whatever happened to 'few months ago', i surely hope that it was worth the experience. This is our last production, but this is not the most memorable... definitely.

DRUNKEN LIFE

So let me share to you my recent realizations on random things, and since I am here at home, nursing myself from a hangover, why don’t I relate this blog to drinking.

5% ALCOHOL IS STILL ALCOHOL. No matter how little a damage is, still a damage is a damage (and yes I’ve repeated damage thrice in one sentence, ooops, ive said it again, 4x then… haha), but it’s up to you to control it. You know for a fact that when you drink a beer, there’s an alcohol content, 5% alcohol of 1 bottle may be few, but you have consumed 4 bottles, now what gives you? Each of us contain our own alcohol content, our own flaws, don’t deal with people with high alcohol content though, too much of it will only give you the perennial headache. Choose who to trust, remember that alcohol in beers are the ones who gives us the high, it may either make us so happy, or worse, make us damn wasted. Control the alcohol intake; don’t wait until you have to puke it.

WATER IS THE DRUNK’S BEST FRIEND. Since beer dehydrates us, did you know that no matter how much you drink, if you take 3 glasses of water between beers, you won’t get drunk at all? And even if I feel relieve after drinking coffee when I’m drunk, it doesn’t really help. Coffee dehydrates us as well… you would just end up being a wide awake drunk. Just like in life, we all need our water when we’re wasted. We need our friends. I am so happy because I’ve seen who my trusted friends are at those times when I felt so down. And surprisingly I discovered a friend I never thought would be there to check on me. I am very grateful because despite whatever pain I’ve felt, the essence of friendship still remained. I found a new friend, and I’ve surpassed a test of friendship. It is indeed a lifetime friendship, my lifetime water, clear, clean and over flowing =)

WATCH YOUR PACE, NEVER DRINK TOO FAST. Drink as slow as possible, that’s why I prefer to drink with my own bottle than tagay. I always consider drinking sessions as a time to converse, to bond, and to share the most hilarious story to the most senseless experience. It’s not about bragging your capacity to drink, and of course no pressure, don’t rush yourself to finish your beer. Same with my career, fortunately I don’t get pressured by the people around me, my advertising group and thesis mates are cool. My boss is sweet as usual, and clients are over whelming (especially… hahaha!). But I am pressured by time, so little time, so many things to do. Why do I always get stuck up with time?! Ironically I am enjoying all that I am doing, but physically I am drained already. I guess like in beer, I’ll take it slowly, no need to rush things, inhale, exhale, one drink at a time.

EAT BEFORE YOU DRINK. Eat before you drink or eat while drinking. The food will not only help absorb alcohol slowly, but also slow your drinking pitch down. I make sure that I ate before drinking since I’m not the type who eats while drinking; I just don’t like the taste of food and beer altogether. Whew, this is a huge realization last night. I got drunken big time! I am not usually like that, I have my composure and I hate vomiting. I felt helpless last night, no energy to hang on, haha. And yeah I blame it on my diet. I’ve been feeling weak lately, but I’m not on a crash diet just so you know. I eat but my rice intake is ultimately small, like 1/3 of a cup of rice. It has been like that since summer started, and I saw the effect, they really noticed my loss of weight, so I thought, why stop it. But then the level of my activities is not at par with the amount of nutrients I put on my body, and that’s what weakened me. I am jeopardizing my health on vanity, yeah like it’s a new thing on girls right. I will learn then, I’ll eat a little more starting today, I don’t want to get drunk like last night again, hahaha!

NOTHING CAN SOBER YOU UP OTHER THAN TIME. Have a long sleep, you can’t instantly cure hangovers. The only way to sober you up is the alcohol leaving your bloodstream - which your body does naturally through the filters in your body (like your liver). But this requires one thing.... time. Yes indeed time heals everything, no need to rush things, especially when it involves emotions. I’ve realized that for all it’s worth, what matters most are the lessons learned during those ‘dizzy’ times. Sleep for a while, or in life, take a rest, give a prayer, and smile. Everything has its purpose, again don’t rush the answers, I guess reasons for circumstances are only revealed when you are ready to accept it. Coz if you’re not, then you won’t realize its worth. Being sober is a choice, detoxifying is not an easy thing to do, but just let time do its magic, coz genuine intentions will absolutely prevail after all.

So I got drunk on my own alcohol content for some time, I drank it fast, forgot my capacity limit, and puked after. Yet somehow I am okay now because I’ve taken my gallons of water already. Don’t be afraid to get drunk in life sometimes, fall down to your mistakes, vomit unnecessary emotions, walk deliriously on decisions, and get dizzy with the pain. We need alcohol sometime to show the real us, to reflect happiness, or even sadness, but once you get drunk, help yourself be sober.

Hangovers are never easy, but at least you know what to do, when your next bottle gets to you! And for the record, I did miss the water Ü

AT TARLAC

TIGIL MO NA YAN

MORNING SHIFT

PAG MAY APOY MAS USOK

UMAGANG KAY SAMA

STATION MASTER

SHADY

DI PALA KASAMA SA OUTING

GOING NOWHERE

ANG PAGDADALAGA NI MAXIMO

DI NGA

ESTRANGHERO

BATO BATO SA LANGIT

- LATE POST ACTUALLY. THIS WAS TAKEN MONTHS AGO PA. HEHE!

SECOND BEST

The men in my life... they’re probably or precisely the reason why I decided to write this blog. For such a time if you notice, I wasn’t able to write entries about love. I used to be a ‘love blogger’, someone who loves to write about love.

And here I go again, whew, this is not a good sign!

Let me start with a*shole, so far I can say that I am much better, yet I still feel the pain once in a while, I am trying my very best to cut ALL my connections, but sometimes circumstances reconnect themselves! And I must admit there’s still hatred.

Then there’s ‘baboy’, he texted me last Saturday with this message:

‘Anghel ka Ü Bumalik sya.., bibigyan daw nya ko ng chance Ü yeah!!!’

Baboy is my ex boyfriend who asked for my shoulder for the first time. That was the first time I saw him depressed big time! I don’t have romantic feelings anymore, I’m sure of that, but he is special, and seeing him overly in love with this girl made me ask myself… was he like that before when we broke up? I am just scared that I would lose him totally, we were like best friends already =(

Then there’s this guy I am seeing at the moment, he makes me smile, he calls me to make sure I’m okay, visits me once in a while after his work… but I am still lonely. Did you ever had this feeling when you felt that both of you are just using each other as rebounds? That’s what I’m feeling right now! It’s like we’re forcing ourselves to compensate each other’s failed expectations, it’s like I am happy with him, but I am happier with someone else.

THESE THREE GUYS… THESE THREE STORIES, WHAT DO THEY HAVE IN COMMON? SIMPLE… I AM ALWAYS THEIR SECOND OPTION.

It may sound unfair for the third guy to conclude this, but that’s really what I feel, I mean he just came from a break up!

After Brian, all I ever did was wait; wait for the final verdict. I am the one to adjust… I am the one to understand… I AM THE MEAN TIME GIRL. For the mean time I’ll call Fao, for the mean time I’ll ask Fao for dinner, for the mean time I’ll show my affection to Fao. Well those are literally the MEAN times, mean as in bad, mean as in painful, mean as in heart breaking.

But I’ll give this man a chance, I won’t judge him yet, maybe I’ll never see his good intentions if I’ll focus on his past. But as I write this and wait for his call I still feel lonely, because I am scared, I am cautious… I’m tired of rationalizing explanations. I’m sick of being the one to give way. I’m done with ‘I AM HAPPY FOR YOU’ moments.

Yet beyond all tears, I rediscovered a Man who NEVER took me for granted, who never made me His second option… I was never His mean time girl. I always pray for that blissful feeling again, I always tell Him to take care of these three guys. And now I am ashamed because I never realized that despite the pain these men caused me, there is still one left, and He is Lord God.

For sure He felt the same way as I do, the second best, the one we consider for the mean time. He has witnessed all my heartaches, He heard all the pain, and He felt all the sadness. He is my consistent and persistent suitor, never gets tired to check on me, never gave up on me, never lost His love for me. I always tell Him how thankful I am for meeting those three guys mentioned, for a while they made me happy, and each time they will make me cry, that's the only time I become thankful for having Him with me =( I AM SORRY, and so above anything else, I will make You the first option in my life, as I am to You!

SOON enough I will be someone’s first, not necessarily first on his priorities, but first on his heart. I’ll be brave again, I won’t hesitate… I will let myself fall, so hard, so fast. I won’t question his intentions; I won’t doubt my feelings…

And for the mean time, I will feel very special… I will LET myself be SPECIAL Ü

H1N1 PARANOIA

Am I an h1n1 carrier? I am on self quarantine as I write… I’m yet to know if I’m positive. Last night my temperature was 39.5! Whew! Man I’m HOT!

I started feeling sick last Thursday, attended a house party that night then went home the morning after. I stayed at home the whole day Friday, felt heavy, well not literally. I thought it is just a hangover, though I didn’t drank too much.

Then Saturday when I woke up, wow I felt cold, dizzy, my temperature' s high, ow yeah… I AM SICK!

I wore mask the whole day, my temperature went higher. Cough and flu were more evident today, but the temperature’s a bit lower now. My mom said last Saturday that they will still observe me before going to the hospital, and I hope I am doing better. I don’t want to eat the same meal again!

noodles and juice forever

Oh well, I am a responsible HOT lady anyway, I make sure not to cough or sneeze on anyone here at home, just in case I am carrying the annoying virus. I hate being sick, I can’t go out, I wasn’t even able to answer Jarred’s call =(, or entertain Shayne and Chat’s visit here, I can’t taste the food I’m eating, and the worst part… I miss having a good good shower! I stink!

Well, good thing I can use the net now, I really hope this is nothing; the h1n1 fever is making us all paranoid, darn.